Undeniable

Blissful moments in Life do not always come in expected ways.It always disguises itself in normal,routine and rather predictable manners of experiences.A simple dinner.A movie outing.A walk by the bays of the city.A period of sitting down.What can these ever offer in enthralling and captivating the imaginations and minds of the simple minded?Not much I guess…not unless…

There is something just beautifully simple yet profound about how two hearts are so coordinated in its beatings,when they meet in that sanctuary called,Undeniable Chemistry.Suddenly,the right words seem to flow,like pearls off the lips.Brushes of contact become the most orgasmic feelings ever.Laughters illuminate the wide black skies,with resplendent shimmerings of the night stars.Feeling that…something just stole your mind for a bit moment,and hoping that it gets lost in the process.Yet,you cannot put a finger right…to what the reasons are…in going through that motions of euphorias,being necessary.

Somewhere along the lines of understanding,I am beginning to appreciate the depth of this thing called End.To fully facilitate an acknowledgment of gratitude,one probably has to realise that anything that was intended to begin,was actually intended to end.Obviously.Waking up is a mean to go through a day,so that sleeping can signal the end of it.The same goes for any sweet,blissful and significant moments.Maybe there is this realm where such a conversation takes place,

Appreciation : Hey guys,I really need your help?

Begin and End : (in unison) Yeah,in what way?

Appreciation : I really am not sure when I should make my presence counts.Can you guys advise me?

Begin : You cannot come before me or immediately after me.Reason being,before me,comes Understanding.Immediately after me,comes Loving.Why not you ask End?

End : You come after me…immediately.

Appreciation: Why is that?

End : Coz,Sharing comes right after Loving,just before me.You come in after me.

Appreciation : That’s not fair.I will be the last.I’ll be a bit lonely coz no one will come after me right?

End : Exactly.That is why you are the most special amongst Us.Coz,only with you in the end,will all of our presence count.Without Appreciation,Understanding is something anyone can engage themselves in.Without Appreciation,Loving is but a routine affair of reciprocations.Without Appreciation,Sharing is a pain in the art of self preservation.Without Appreciation,Begin and End are just two terminologies with no self actualisation.You…Appreciation is that cosmic bind,that glues all serendipitous moments into that thing called Fate!Remember that…

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I will like to believe that in that small Love Sci Fi realm of mine,such conversations between Things occur.Heeee.

An analogy of my Life’s journey was being given a glimpse in a rather unexpected fashion.Holding on to this thought that,I was that journeyman who was travelling on a path in the woods,collecting raw materials needed in building a splendid wooden cottage,with a fantastic woman awaiting at the end of the trail,had been my way of viewing things.Perhaps I was being a bit foolishly hopeful.What if that woman was not even at the end of the trail?What if she was behind me all the while?Never thought of that.seriously.Maybe I was just preoccupied with the cottage building process,that I totally forgot,that the woman can only be awaiting at the end of the trail,only on the accords of her choice.I cannot place her there.I cannot force her there.Yes,the cottage is within my capabilities…but that woman is not.(gosh!)I was a bit fearful…when given that insight.Never quite saw it.Obviously,if she is behind me…she has the option of disappearing in the woods…again.It is just an undeniable reality.

And in that very unexplained moment…I saw the deck of cards…tumbled in magnificient fashion.Yet,I was happy to start placing it,all over again…strange.

Maybe,if Destiny wanted to have its way,by denying me that journey its intended destination,I tell myself,I shall not quit.I will strive to make my Love story no longer a journey,but a Legacy,that leaves behind a trail of meaningful moments.Destiny only establishes itself in stillframed memories.One cannot claim,an ongoing journey to a Legacy,as Destiny.Nothing was reached…

Personally…

I am just even more determined.If my only designation was to be a restorer of Faith…let it be.I made my leap of Faith,a while ago…so I understand.

"If I go blind one day…I will never feel handicapped.Coz,the image of you,giggling…smiling…eyes twinkling…holding my arms…embraced in a lingering hug…will be there,to complete me." - Jazi

Lonely;is a big word,small men use to validate their insecurities.Nothing wrong about it.It just breeds expectation.And Love must never begin with expectations…

ps : Asian Civilisations Museum.Beautiful.It’s all along the same walk…

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