Confusing confusions…
It’s hard being in a position where being ambiguous is comfortable. The prospect of having to admit at times that "If it ain’t broken,don’t fix it" kinda theory is so real.Being frank with myself…I hate my current predicament.Something is missing.A crucial element.Cannot put a name to it…just yet.
What am I doing wrong?
Do I live for the moment…have a "carpe diem" attitude…forget planning…?It’s eating me inside to know that something is not in place.My avenue of expressions is being stifled.Strange…but I feel lonely with my thoughts sometimes.
I’m scared…
…not insecurity that bugs me
…not excess baggages that bothers me
…not confusion that stutters me
What if I personify Akasyah…I don’t know if I have what it takes to be one?
Can I just be left alone?
Can I just be devoid of all these overflowing sentiments damming inside?
Maybe I should just shut up…
The truth is…Time is running out.Take a gentle look at your watch right now…see that second hand moving…followed by the periodic minute hand and hour hand.It’s not an illusion.It’s just too real to realise that I might just one day be a minute late…an hour late…towards something defining.Scary.Geeee…
The irony…to live for the moment…yet forgetting to live the next…
ps: I am depressed…in a good way.FIRST DATE CAFE…I need you!
June 27th, 2006 at 4:30 am
“ALLAH is the GREATEST!!”
WOW!!ALL THESE WHILE, “HER” SOUL MATE HAF BEEN FLIRTING N FUCKING BEHING MY BACK!! BRAVO!! OOPPSSS… OR Am i the idiot to believe his honey words, his confession, his love..his LIES that he’s been working for “our” future?? FUCKING LIAR!!
You are the GREATEST JERK, BASTARD, ANIMAL i’ve ever come across!! You make used of me financially for 8years juz to enjoy urelf wif all those SLUTS!!
MOHD HIJAZI SUDARMAJI,I, MARDIANA HARON, SWEAR Dat UR LIFE WILL BE DISASTEROUS THROUGH OUT N WATEVA U DID TO ME ALL THESE WHILE WILL COME BACK TO U, DEFINETELY!!, THE WORST SCENARIOS ONE CAN EVER IMAGINE IN UR 7 GENERATIONS!! HIDUP KAU TAK KAN SELAMAT &BERKAT!! - AMIN
MARK MY WORDS, MONEY CAN BE EARNED, I WOULDN’T WANNA ACCEPT “UR DIRTY MONEY”. WATEVA THAT U’VE USED NEVA WILL I,HALAL THEM, N NEVA WILL I 4GIVE U, NEVA!!!!!
MY GREATEST REGRET WAS TO HAVE U,(A JERK,BASTARD,LIAR) IN MY LIFE. PLEASE DUN ACKNOWLEDGE ME EVEN AS A FRIEND!
I’M GLAD THAT IT’S OVER NOW!! IT’S TIME FOR U TO HUNT NEW PREYS!