Undeniable

Strangely…I’ve been having weird dreams ranging from nothing to everything. Peepz who had been so out of my life had been making Emmy Nominated cameo appearances in my dreams.Not that I was bothered.Juz the other day,a dearie soul commented that she had been dreaming of me asking her to wait for me.For what?Beats the nuts out of me and herself!But as I commented to her…the sheer thought was scary.

My last month had been pretty packed with lotsa things.From handling neurotic women to enjoying a revival in my soccer playing games to taking care of my sickly mum.Since I am on that,it might be worth a mention that my mum was recently warded to KKSH for a cervical condition of some sort.That morning when I had my mum sent to the hospital via ambulance was a perspective changing moment for me.Upon going through the formalities of registration,I was deeply engrossed evesdropping on the conversations going around.There were families whose daughter had just given birth to a dead foetus.They did not know who the father was.They wanted to conduct a DNA test that would have cost them $2K.Poor family.There was a woman who was dripping of menstrual blood.Oh gosh…that was a terrifying 2 hours experience for a man like me.Being surrounded in the pain a woman has to suffer.

But perhaps,the most agonising picture of pain for me was that of a Malay couple around my age.The girl was going to have an abortion the next morning and they were checking out the beds for the warding.As they were being briefed by the nurse of the charges involved,there was an excruciating look of despair on the guy’s face as he realised that he might not have enough Medisave to afford the expenses.As the guy was being whisked away foe further explanations,I could not help but just take a short glance at the girl.That was the painful part.Upon seeing my glance,she managed to carve a weak smile…and then she burst into tears.I was kinda distressed but there was not much that I could have done anyway.To run over to the bed and hug a despairing,crying,absolutely gorgeous,pregnant lady was not exactly the most right thing to do.So all I had to do was just smile.

The poignant fact is,I felt sorry for the girl.I wished that there could have been more that I could have done to put her life into a much happier perspective.For all I know,she would have perhaps gone through the abortion unscathed,live out to marry the guy eventually,have kids and die of old age.Practically normal.But upon introspection,I bet my life that the memory of aborting that child will have flash across her mind,should she be lying on her deathbed.And for all the love there is in the world anyone could have provide for her,that is one thing love will never remove.And that is one thing a guy will not have to live with,even in death.Sigh.

July was a good month overall.Alhamdullilah…I was 7th in ranking for top new consultants in the whole of Singapore.Yipeeee!I had just recently been selected and enrolled in my company’s School of Achievers.Basically a graduating school,where peepz like me are trained and focused on to be the elite consultants in the company.Hopefully so.The first session started out great!We had a teambuilding session that proved to be defining for me!My team did great in the coordination of things that had us ran out as clear winners.The thing that made me a proud man that morning was that,the fundamental ideas originated from me,and my teammates and the course coordinator credited that to me!And I did a 5 minutes impromptu presentation that had the peepz there asking me,which university I was from.Should have seen the gaping mouths when I told them I was from ITE.Oh yeah…I was the only ITE graduated,Malay guy there,in a a cohort of 50.My point in saying all this?It is not bragging…just a humble acknowledgement that sometimes God does help peepz like me,who grind out against the odds and criticisms from Life.I’ve learned a lot the past year or so…that it is not so much of where you had been that matters.It is almost a matter of where you are now,and where you are going to that counts.

On the light side of things,it had been good being in a situation where slowly but surely,my circle of friends are expanding.I love people and it sure is a blessing thing to have my lives touched by them.Work wise had been encouraging.In a way…everything’s fine currently.I am looking forward to my Bangkok trip in September…which will keep me recharged for the final assault on my final working months.Till then…I’ll keep moving.

PS:Women are respectable peepz and I admire womenhood.What I hate are those women who think that women’s rights are the same as men’s.Women have their own unique rights that ought to be upheld.Women will never…have the same rights as those of men.Not being chauvinistic…not being gender biased…juz being factual.Women never had the first right of being created.It went to Adam.Yet…we all love each other…