Undeniable

This week,I realize the despair and ache that had been germinating within my garden of thoughts is peaking astronomically. The more I think about the fulfillment that Love is supposed to provide,the more disgusted I am with myself. I never quite understand how I could have allowed the resentment and bitterness within me,shape the personality that I am now.Emotions?Is it for real?Love?Yeah right?! I was never the kinda chauvinistic pig that I might be perceived of as of recent times.

Aniwae…to hell with feelings and emotions!

I am really looking forward to the June holidays.Bangkok here I come!!!Yups,I need the breather and the change in perceptions.This week,a good soul of mine reminded me of just how worthy I am as a friend. Thank you Noraini! Appreciate your thoughts! It feels nice that someone genuinely appreciates my presence in their life. Best part is,I genuinely appreciate their presence too.

Anticipating my pay with delight. Thank God,the amount this month is substansial enough for me to perhaps purchase a notebook,provide my mom,indulge my loving bro,shop with my loved one,buy medicine for my Grandma,get a haircut,buy new clothings and perhaps escape to Bangkok with a bit more cash! Yes…and perhaps just try and continue on my licence. Ahakz! Mazda RX8…you are still a dream.

This Saturday,I will be conducting my first ever financial workshop. Oh boy am I excited! My dreams of becoming a speaker is being achieved on a small scale for the meantime. Hehehe…5 more years,and Suntec will be my debut speaking engagement!!!

Gosh,I’m listless…

Personal note.This week has been a good week in terms of sociability. Not that it matters. My profile at Anakmelayu has been swarmed with requests to be friends…and I got lotsa sticky notes commenting just how much they liked my profile. Strange! One even commented that I was such a cutie. *Enter the roars of laughter*. Damn! I swear something is definitely wrong with the week! But hey,like I said…I am not bothered. Lesson number one: Flattery gets you somewhere you do not want to be in the first place. So please my ladies…hahahaha…I may be single but I am definitely not available…not looking for and am not interested. I am happy with falling in love with myself. Kwang…kwang…kwang. And yes,I am straight.

Till I write again…